Sunday, 16 February 2014

Fix...day 4!

Okay...I had a pretty uneventful day.  I actually decided not to bore you with my meals, and the same old pictures LOL.  Nothing changed! ;)  I told you...creature of HABIT! :D
I changed nothing in my meal plan.  I have 1 blue and 1 red left though, so I will probably either snack on some almonds and cottage cheese...or...do I dare have ANOTHER chocolate covered Strawberry....NO!!  I'm done with those, I swear! ;) 

Pilates was AWESOME.  I thought maybe I would pop in something else after...umm, yea no.  My core, legs, booty, ouch, ouch!  I don't think I have ever done Pilates before, so I guess I didn't know what to expect!  It was pretty awesome. :)  

The best thing that happened to me today, was putting on a pair of old black yoga pants I got last Christmas.  These pants were always a little snug.  I can remember a couple of times I put them on, and literally pulling them off because I couldn't take the tightness of them. 

I have had issues with the way I look for a long time.  I once had someone come up behind me (during a time I actually felt good about myself) and grab my "love handles" and tell me I was getting fat.  Things like that can scar you.  Scar you for life.  So I look in the mirror, and I see....well, fat I guess.  I have always carried my weight in my middle, even in HS.  My BFF was a curvy, tiny thing...and while I wasn't ever overweight, I was NOT curvy!  

And I'm not trying to be curvy now.  I am not trying to be skinny.  What I am trying to do, is love myself again.  Love ME.  Love every, single thing I see when I look in the mirror. 

I want to love me.  
And for the first time, in a very long time, I think this whole "21 day fix thing" just could be the stepping stones to get me there. 



Saturday, 15 February 2014

21 Day Fix, day 3!!

Not gonna lie, I was scared about the weekend.  My not so great diet, slips up even more.  My husband is not doing this with me, but he's being more supportive then I thought he would be.  Like he ate all my turkey meat today, so he went to the store this evening to get me more so I would have it tomorrow for lunch. :)  little things like that, are really helping me a ton.  I did get a craving for a soda today.  Now, I'm not a daily soda drinker, but we always have it in the house.  Again, I have someone here who has to have his Coke in the house.  I have maybe 2 a week...on the weekends normally.  But instead of giving in to my craving, I make my Shakeology, got my fruit and headed down to hang out with the girls.  I felt much better making that choice instead of giving in! On to my day!  I hate to bore you with my food pictures, I know I don't change what I eat much! :)

Breakfast
1 yellow
1 tsp of peanut butter
1 purple (not pictured is pineapple and strawberries)


I had kind of a late breakfast, and worked out around 1030.  So I didn't get anything in after this until lunch.
Lunch
2 reds (cottage cheese and turkey)
2 greens (spinach and cucumbers/tomatoes
1 yellow (not pictured, mashed potatoes)

Afternoon snack
1 purple (pineapple and strawberries)
1 red (vanilla Shakeology with 12oz of water and ice)
1 blue (not pictured, 12 almonds)

Dinner
2 reds  
1 green

I still have 1/2 a red (I only had 3 pieces of turkey in my salad, not 6) and 1 tsp I could have today.  Honestly, I'm good. :)  I MAY have just one more chocolate covered Strawberry.  Maybe. ;) Today's workout was Lower Fix.  Burn baby burn!  I didn't get a picture, but lets just say my booty, and inner thighs are in FIRE!! 
Happy Saturday. :))
 

Friday, 14 February 2014

21 Day Fix, day 2

First off Happy Valentines Day! :)  I love, love this day.  Some don't, and think it's a waste of a day....but not me. I grew up celebrating it, and my kids will too.  Why not have a reason to spoil someone with flowers, teddy bears, and candy? ;)


Okay, so back to my day!  Today was crazy busy!  Not only did I have to grocery shop, we got around 4 inches of snow dumped on us, QUICK!  The roads were terrible, and it was just coming down like crazy! This was after a 40 minute trip!


But I managed to get everything I needed, came home, cleaned a bit, and then got my workout in.  Upper Fix...(is that right?  I was going to say Upper Focus but that's T25 lol) 
Anyway, all upper body, and lets not forget to burn our abs out too, holy wozers!  Loved this workout so much!  Very challenging! 

Everything from forearm plank for 60 seconds, to shoulder presses, and push ups.  I am loving this workout so far, much more then I thought I would!  I have a new trainer crush! ;) 

On to the food! 

Breakfast
1 yellow
1 purple
 Whole wheat waffle with a dash of cinnamon, and some pineapple

Snack
1 red
1 blue
Shakeology, 10oz of water with ice, and 12 almonds

Lunch
3 greens (tomato's, cucumbers, and spinach)
1/2 red (3 slices of low sodium turkey)

After school snack
1 purple
1/2 red (3 slices of low sodium turkey)
1 purple (pineapple and strawberries cut up)
(that blue is the rest of my almonds from earlier)
 
  Dinner
I did so much better today spacing out my foods, and am very full from dinner!
2 reds
1 yellow
This is cottage cheese, turkey burger cut up, and Quinoa  

If every day could be like today, I am golden!  I feel awesome, and was not hungry at all!  I can honestly tell you that in just 2 days, I feel different.  Less bloated, less gassy, and not so much heartburn are the 3 things that really stand out!

I did treat myself to a chocolate covered strawberry....me and Alex split it. :)  But you know what?  I think I'll be okay.  No cravings, and I'm ready to tackle the weekend!
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend, and again, Happy Valentines Day! :)






Thursday, 13 February 2014

21 Day Fix, day 1

As I mentioned yesterday, I went ahead and started the 21 day fix today!  I would have to say today has been, okay.  Not great, but not bad.  
My calorie range is in the 1200-1499 range.  I am allowed
4 Reds
2 Purples
3 Green
1 Blue
1 Orange
2 Yello
2 TSP

I started this before a trip to the store, but I had everything here to fill my containers. After getting through today, I realized I need to move my meals around a bit,  because I was REALLY hungry between 3-6.  So here is what my day looked like. 

Morning coffee
  No creamer, 1 stevia.  I WILL adjust LOL.

Breakfast
1 red, 1 purple
2 hard boiled eggs, and strawberries
I am not very hungry in the morning, and plan on taking out a red this early.  I feel like I could of used it later in the day. 

Snack after workout
1 red, 1 purple
No picture for this (sorry!) but I had one scoop of vanilla Shakeology, 10oz of water, and half a banana.

Lunch
1 red, 2 greens, 1 blue and 1 orange
No more cheese to fill up my blue, I really didn't need it.  And I had to cheat a little and use some of my yogurt ranch dressing...I know, I know.  But in my defense, I didn't have anything to make the 21 day fix dressings, and I was hungry, and didn't want a dry salad.  I used about half of my orange container just to give it a little more flavor.

The girls get home, and normally we are digging for a snack.  Apples, string cheese, things like that...well, I couldn't have those today, and again, I was hungry!  This is the normal time I'm snacking, so was it my mind triggering my body to be hungry, but I could of been okay?  Maybe.  Regardless, I had 1 yellow, which was a sweet potato, while we relaxed after school and played Mario Cart.

Dinner
1 red, 1 green, 1 yellow
That's rice, lettuce, and a turkey burger cut up.

SO.  I did my best.  I definitely have room to improve.  There are lots of options when it comes to these meals, but I worked with what I had at home. 

Right now, again, I'm a little hungry.  But like I told my husband, I'm doing this to change my habits.  Normally on a day like today when I felt hungry, I would of stuck my head in the fridge and got something to eat.  Not knowing where I was for the day in calories, or in carbs/proein/fats.  
Since I am in the lowest calorie bracket, I am going to give this a few days, and then see if I'm still this hungry at the end of the day.  I don't know if I adjust...or stick it out the whole 21 days. 

Oh, and the first workout...was AWESOME.  I am already sore.  I was breathing heavy the entire time.  She has a Jillian type style of workouts, but isn't as hardcore.  I'll try and get a video up tomorrow. :)

Saturday, 8 February 2014

Pour your heart out-A double shot of depression

This post is an oldie, but a goodie....never be afraid to ask for help, if you feel like you need it!

I wondered if I would ever get this post out.  I wondered if I had the strength to write it out, and go back and remember the last 3 months.  But I got an overwhelming feeling today to do just that, so here I go.
The first time I got diagnosed with depression was when the girls were about 3 weeks old.  PPD.  
So when it happened again 3 weeks ago, it wasn't something I had never been through before.  But I felt like I should of seen it coming.  
Last year in June, I got the brilliant idea to get off my Lexapro.  At the time I thought it was the smart thing to do.  I didn't want to be on antidepressants my whole life. And coming off of them is just as bad as being depressed.  I thought I would be better off in the long run, and looked for natural cures.  I started taking Formula 303, and St. Johns Wart.  I was working out, taking care of myself, doing everything possible to make my head better.  For a while there, I felt okay.  It was summer, we were outside in the sun most days, I was hanging on and feeling pretty good, but not EVER how I felt when I was on them.  I wondered all the time if I should get back on it, but had convinced myself that it was not a good idea. I had a few terrible things happen to my spirit too....the death of my dog, and watching my Mom choose alcohol over me.  Those 2 events almost broke me, but I held on.
So fast forward to November of last year.  We had just found out we were moving.  Moving away from a house full of memories of my little girls. After dealing with infertility for 6 years, we finally brought home our babies.  So many memories in my head...first words, first steps. It was all just so overwhelming, and I wasn't ready to let go.
But I packed.  And I cried.  I cried every single day.  Not just here and there, every day.  I cried because I was scared, I cried because I was happy, I cried because I couldn't do anything else but cry.  We were moving in to a house that was almost perfect for us.  It had everything we were looking for, and a little more.  I was happy, but I was so scared to let go and move on.  I wanted to, but another part of me said no. 

See, I don't handle change well.  If my curtains change, it takes me weeks to be okay with it.  I don't know what it is, I just don't do well with it.  Little things like curtains I can deal with though....big things, life changing things, well it's a bit harder for me to adjust.

It got worse, but I wouldn't admit I needed help.  I swore I was okay, and pushed on daily.  Then we moved 2 weeks before Christmas and things just got really, really bad.  December and the beginning of January were the 2 worst months Ive had since bringing the girls home from the hospital.  I was so depressed, it was not even funny.  I was never happy, I never smiled, I was mean to my family, I was not motivated to do anything.  I cried every single day of my life.  I had it in my head I was not going to admit to being depressed.  I thought I could beat it, I thought I would eventually feel better.
That feeling better never came.  I didn't want to live.  I never thought about killing myself, but I thought about how much happier I would be if I wasn't living...if that made sense. Then one night, I was laying on the couch, physically unable to move.  I hurt.  My body ached, my heart ached...and my husband was holding my hand while I cried just looking at me...wanting to help me, but knowing he couldn't.  I didn't want to play with my kids, or be around anyone.  The thought of waking up in the morning, and just taking care of my children was enough to make me cry.  I didn't enjoy anything anymore.
 
The next day, I called my doctor. He diagnosed me again, and put me back on Zoloft. 

I think the move put me over the edge.  Just like when I brought 2 little babies home from the hospital, we moved our of a house we built the first 10 years of our life in.  Big changes, and I couldn't handle it just like I couldn't before.  And add that in with the stress of the holidays, and a trip to the ER on Christmas morning with one of my daughters....well, I couldn't take it anymore.
I guess I have not beaten depression.  I am not ever going to be off of Zoloft, and I think I'm okay with that.
  After 5 days of being back on it, I felt better.  I felt like I was getting myself back. And now, it's been almost a month and I wonder why it took me this long to realize it.  Why did I let myself hit rock bottom before I got help?  I have told so many people not to be embarrassed about depression, and that's what I was....I felt embarrassed, I felt weak, I felt like a bad Mother, and a bad wife.  But I know now, I felt like that because I was sick and needed help.

I'm doing good.  I feel great really.  I love life again.  I love everything about waking up in the morning.  I don't worry so much.  I don't obsess over things I can't change. I don't get anxious when I go out in public.
I love my new house.  I love everything about it.

I think a lot of people think you can cure depression by changing the way you live.  I don't think you can cure it by just doing that.  I think depression is a chemical imbalance in your brain, and some people, like myself, have that imbalance and need medication to make it balance.  There are plenty of people that take medication daily for other things besides depression, but yet our society makes people like myself feel bad for having to do that.
Why?
  I'm finally at a place where I can talk about this and not feel bad for taking my Zoloft before I go to bed.  
I never should of been....




21 Day Fix!


I couldn't be more excited about our new program, the 21 day fix!  
If you are anything like me, counting calories and portion control are your biggest issues with keeping or getting the weight off.  I despise counting calories.  
You get what is pictured above.  Colored containers will become your new BFF.  If it fits in the container, you can eat it!  But you won't be eating crap.  The meal guide will give you clean, healthy recipes.  So think oatmeal, omelet with veggies, salads with grilled chicken, rice, fruit.  So each day, you will get a certain amount of calories.  And then based on your calorie plan, you get a certain number of containers!  So you might get 4 blues one day, and 2 greens.  SIMPLE!! 
And the workouts are short, but effective.  They are 30 minutes long, and you get everything from cadio to yoga, to weights.  

If your serious about losing weight and doing it the right way, this program is for you.  I think this will end of being a life changing program for a lot of people, including myself!

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Wednesday, 1 January 2014

First run of 2014!

2 pairs of pants ✔️
2 shirts ✔️
2 thermal coats ✔️
1 neck wrap thingy ✔️
1 thermal hat✔️ 1 #hipster ✔️ Air temp of 7!! Christmas lights!! And it started to snow! ❄️❄️ Seriously though, it was a pretty good run. My feet were the only thing cold on me, which then made them a little numb. I ran slow, and didn't quite get in 3 miles because it was getting dark and I had to let hubby get his in too. But, I did something I never thought I would do, and now know I'm capable of. Running in single digits!


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