Thursday, 29 August 2013

After school fun.

Running~love it or hate it.

Correct me if I am wrong, but running.  You hate it, or you love it.  I have never been one to enjoy running.  Living in the Midwest, it's hot in the summer, muggy, I have terrible allergies, my sweat pours into my face, and honestly I just don't care for it.  
Ever since becoming a Beachbody coach, I have done a ton of workouts.  I have pretty much only worked out inside.  I have given running a few chances, but after about 1 week I'm done.  I start making excuses again.  
Something hit me this week.  And you know how sometimes you say your not sure what hit you.....I know what it was.  One of the pages I follow on Facebook, who has become a really close friend of mine, made a post about running.  You can read that here, it's a really good, emotional post.  
She is a cancer survivor, and her post really hit home for me.  I have always wanted to be a "runner."  To feel what if feels like to release the negativity from your life by lacing up and running.  But I never could.  And here's the thing.  Did I ever really give myself a chance?  I have quit so many times.  I think I finally figured out why I was quitting.
It's challenging for me.  It's really, really a challenge.  I'm so used to being in the comfort of my own home that the thought of heading outside is just not something I want to do! So I make excuses, and I just about my business telling myself "you aren't a runner." 
Why not though?  What if I started to go out there, and show myself that I was, indeed, a runner?  What if I stopped saying I couldn't, and proved to myself that I could?  What if...I signed up for a 5K this fall.  What if....I learned to love it, and became a runner? 

This week I have ran twice this week, and I plan on running a couple more days.  I am really sore, and don't want to push it.  From here on out I will continue to track my journey on my blog, but here are my first couple days!!  Not to and I'm feeling pretty good. :)

Day 1

Aug 27, 2013 11:02am

So I did it. I dropped the girls off at school, and made the decision to just get it done. I walked upstairs, sat in front of the fan on my bed, and for a second thought I'll just do it later. But I knew I wouldn't.
Those thoughts quickly went away, and I thought about all the support from my post last night. And thought about the ones who would check on me. That's they power of a support system. Not only do you let yourself down, you let others down too.
It was hot. I tried to run in the shade. We live in an old neighborhood so we have a lot of tress which is nice. Once I ran directly in the sun, I started just dripping. But I just pushed through, turned up my music and got through it.
My phone for some reason has "laps" so at one point I checked how far I had been and it wasn't even a mile. I thought oh jeez, I am not doing good! So I ran more. Then I got home, and looked at it and it said .54 of a mile....okay, something wasn't right lol. I expected to run about 2 miles, but I did more. Not to bad....although I still hope to understand how some of you out there run 10+. Hell, even 5+ for me right now lol.


Day 2 Aug 28, 2013 1:51pm I hit the neighborhood for a run again today. I did 2.41 miles in 35 minutes, then came home and did 25 minutes of weights from T-25 Gamma. I'm telling you I did not want to do anything after my run, but I changed clothes (I was soaked) and got it done. I'm feel good, proud, happy, accomplished, and SORE. Is there anyway I could stop running now? I mean, sure there is. But it would just be me failing. At something that is so challenging to me, but doing it gives you that huge sense of accomplishment. This might be a new chapter opening for me.

Monday, 26 August 2013

Twinfatuation-Makes my Monday

What makes my Monday, is that it's Monday! 
Last week was a rough one for us all.  The girls going back to school, getting off schedule, trying to find a NEW schedule.  When I get off track, so do my eating habits!  So I have recommitted with my challenge group to log my food again, and stay away from the junk!  Meal planning and prepping are a great way to make sure you have good food choices, so you don't have to opt for take out.  

What also makes my Monday, is these 2 little beauties were ready to go to school today.  There were no tears....except by Mommy!  It's hard to watch them walk into school.  I miss them like crazy!  But no tears from them is a super good way to start off the week! 

Play along with Makes my Monday over at Twinfatuation!

Saturday, 24 August 2013

Another reason to drink Shakeology

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Friday, 23 August 2013

1st week of Kindergarten

So the time has come.  Never did I think it would actually come for some reason.  My kids would never be in public school. They just would never grow up!  But they did.
We had a great week.  Monday we went to the school park where they would be going to K.  We have been there before, but it was nice to go and talk about school and when they would be playing here for recess. 

The first day went pretty well.  It was crazy stressful, but the girls seemed happy, lunches were packed, so away we went! 

We of course, got there late.  So instead of lining up with the class on the playground, we were rushed inside by someone who should NOT of rushed us in.  Needless to say, we left Abby sobbing, and Alex kind of looking around not knowing what the hell was going on.  

The teacher reported that both girls had great first days.  They have actually had a great week!  I take them to school every morning, and pick them up everyday.  There has been some tears, but they quickly go away when they are settled in class.  When I pick them up, they have to come outside and go to a bench before I can get them.  Abby always comes out with tears in her eyes!  I get sad, but the teacher says she only does it she hears "lets go see MOM" which makes me kind of tear up.  Today she ran to me and was crying, and I asked her what was wrong.  She said "oh nothing, I just missed you so much!" 

I miss you to baby girls.  Mommy is having a really hard time adjusting to this.  I am used to a couple hours of quiet time.  But this whole 6 hour's not settling well with me.  I will find my happy place again.  But for now, I'm just going through the motions.  Trying to keep busy, while not trying to miss them to much.

Oh, and today Alex said "Mommy, some boy told me I looked pretty"
Me-"well, you are pretty.  Did you say thank you?"
Alex-"No!  You don't want me to have a boyfriend do you??" 
Me-" baby girl.  I sure don't." 

Monday, 19 August 2013

Soaking it all in......

I have been a little MIA today.  I might sound like a broken record, but again, coming to admit that I'm totally and utterly SAD my babies are going to be starting Kindergarten!  Yes I know, it will all workout, everything will be fine, and we will all survive.  But it's tough.  It really hit me last night talking to my husband.  I remember the hard times in the past.  The nights they wouldn't sleep, the days I wanted to pull my hair out.  Thinking "one day they will grown up and off to school, enjoy it wile you can."
Today we have spent the day at home.  Playing a matching game, finding bugs, chasing butterflies, and just enjoying each others company.

Do we ever get prepared for this?  Preschool was a big change, but for me this seems even bigger.  I did go back to work a couple times after they were born, but they were never at the sitters for longer then a few hours.  I made it a point to be there, no matter what the finances said.  We made it work.  I didn't want to miss anything.  And I haven't.  We have spent days at the park, in the sun, swimming, blowing bubbles until we ran out, and also laying out blankets on those rainy days doing our nails and watching movies. 
Life in school is just beginning.  A new chapter is about to start.  I'm excited.  But also get a little teared up thinking about them being gone all day, and me not being there to protect them.  To make sure kids are nice, and to comfort Abby when she gets overwhelmed.  We tucked them in bed last night, and Abby came out about 5 minutes later saying Alex was crying.  We went up, and she ran into my arms and said "I'm going to miss you and Daddy so much" then Daddy explained that it's not to much longer then summer class, and they would be fine!
We came down, poured a big glass of wine, and thought about how fast time has gone by.
We meet the teacher tomorrow, first full day is Wednesday. 
Wish us (me) luck! :)

Sunday, 18 August 2013

Magic potion

Sunny days filled with mud, sand, bugs, and just about anything else they found in the yard!! 

Saturday, 17 August 2013

PPD-your not alone!

I wrote this back in April of 2008.  The girls were 3 weeks old.  I will never forget that visit to the doctors office.

3 weeks old!
Wow, its kind of gone by quick. Really next week they will be a month old? These first weeks that we were in a daze, Im going to look back and probably get upset I didn't enjoy them more. Its so hard to when your dealing with 2 newborns, and your not sleeping!
The girls are growing up so much. I have been so bad about pictures, but starting tomorrow will start taking more! They are actually fitting into up to 10 pound diapers already. I was kind of sad when I realized they have grown so much they don't fit into the Premmies. They are a little big on Alex still, but they fit Abby well.
Since you have all been reading my journal since day 1, I guess I can share some personal info with you guys. I have been diagnosed with depression. It started out as a case of the baby blues it what they call them. Started in the hospital. Crying for no reason, all that. I know its normal. But what I was feeling wasn't normal. I was anxious, having panic attacks, feeling helpless, feeling like a bad mother, feeling like I needed to be away from the babies...hell, I wanted to go back to the hospital where I could rest, be taken care of, and I could get a break. Then I was feeling guilty for feeling the was I was feeling. I waited YEARS for these girls. I wanted to be a Mom more than anything in the world. I was so confused on why I was feeling this way. We went to the doctor last week, and Wes actually had to bring it up to my doctor b/c I was ashamed to talk about it. I told her I was just weepy, and held back how I was really feeling. But it got worse..everyday I felt worse. And my poor husband was feeling it too, b/c he was so worried about me he was doing almost everything!! Telling me he could take care of the babies, you just relax. I knew I had to do something. So I went back to the doctor, and she said she was not surprised to see me. She said when the husband brings up the depression, its usually not just the "baby blues" and she thought he was concerned about me, which he was. I just didn't want to admit I needed help. I did to my friends online, and a lot of them opened up and told me I was not alone, and between them and Wes, convinced me to talk to her. She put me on 2 different kinds of medication, and it seems to help a little bit. Im on Xanax and Zoloft. Im on the lowest does of Xanax, and I think I might have to up that. Im still having panic attacks after I take one.
Anyway, I think Im finally over feeling guilty for going through this. I was just scared. I was not bonding the way I wanted to with my girls. I was not being a good wife, and was not being a good Mom. But I got help. And I think things will start to get better soon. I do feel better already, but still have my moments.
The girls are staying with Grandma and Grandpa this weekend. I didn't even ask, Grandma offered! I think it will be great for Wes and I to have a night alone. I know an hour after I drop them off, Ill miss them like crazy.
Thats all for now!

If you are a new Mom and think you might be experiencing PPD, please don't wait a day longer.  Go to your doctor and let them help you!!  

Thursday, 15 August 2013

End of summer sales on our hottest programs!

So how was your summer?  Did you smash some goals, or are you still not quite there yet?  Did you start a program, not finish it, or just didn't start at all?  
Well, your in luck.  This month, 2 of my favorite programs are on sale.  

T-25 is the brand new program that is getting more and more popular every day.  
The idea is that each workout is 25 minutes of pure intensity, 100% focus. No REST! That’s the thing.
Non-stop moves. Everything you need, nothing you don’t . . .
So even when you’re busy, you’ll always have time to get your workout in. That’s what I like about it.
The other great part about T25 is there’s always a modifier on screen. So you can go really hard or pull back as much as you want. It may be the most efficient, effective program I’ve seen.
Also, through me, I can get you a FREE workout DVD Core Speed.
You can purchase the program by itself for 119.99, or you have the challenge pack option.
What's a challenge pack?  You get your program, 30 days of club membership at Team Beachbody, Shakeology for 30 days, a private support group on Facebook, and personal 1 on 1 time with me to help you along your journey.  The challenge pack is knocked down to $180 this month from the normal $205.  So you are getting Shakeology for around $60 instead of 129.99.  Sounds like a good deal right? 
What is Shakeology?  Click HERE to learn more!
T-25 Program can be purchased here.
T-25 Challenge pack here.


  TurboFire is a crazy-intense and fun cardio program designed to awaken your inner athlete and help you get a leaner, sexier body—fast! This 90-day program is packed with kickboxing drills, aerobic exercises, and intense intervals perfectly choreographed to the hottest music, so you stay motivated to push hard and get awesome results. Award-winning fitness expert Chalene Johnson is with you every step of the way, getting you hooked on the adrenaline high, burning tons of calories, and shedding those extra pounds. 

I have done Turbo Fire and lost 18lbs.  It's one of my favorite programs Beachbody offers.  You don't want to miss out on this crazy awesome deal.  Our challenge groups offer everything you need to succeed. Support+nutrition=RESULTS!! 
This month, the Turbo Fire challenge pack is on sale for $160!!  You can order that here

This is one of my best friends, and a coach on my team!  She lost 15lbs and 12 inches in 90 days!  Make sure you go visit her on Facebook at Free your mind with Stacey! +

Wednesday, 14 August 2013

Way back when-esday!

Oh how I have missed playing along weekly with Cheryl at Twinfatuation!  Every week she ask you to go through your old photos and share some memories! 

My kiddos are headed to school next Tuesday, the big Kindergarten!  My oh my.  I remember their first day of preschool like it was yesterday.  The tears, the fears, the uncertainty that they would survive being away from me for 2 hours.

But they managed.  And it turned out to be the best experience we could of asked for. :) 

First day, 2011

 First day, 2012

Where did my babies go?

Monday, 12 August 2013

Serious about your health?

If you are serious about getting healthier I am shipping out Shakeology samples this week.

It is no secret that your nutrition will either help you reach your goals or lead you further away from it.

Being in an accountability group, doing workout videos at home, and drinking Shakeology is the only thing that has worked for me to shed almost 20lbs along with Turbo Fire. I'm down 3 more since starting T-25.

And nothing is better then surrounding yourself with support and accountability of a support group. It's a win-win!

I will invest in you and pay the shipping. I do this because I know and understand the true benefits and want you to feel how I feel. You get 70 natural ingredients, lose weight-if necessary, feel more energized, and the daily amount of fruits and vegetables a day that you need. Pretty sweet right?

If your interested email me at I have vanilla, vegan chocolate and vegan tropical. I charge $5 each/ which is my cost.

What super food have you eaten off the list? They are in just 1 scoop of Shakeology that you will get every day! :))


Saturday, 10 August 2013

Back to school

Back to school.  But also, STARTING school.  Does preschool count as "school" or is it just a getting your fee wet kind of thing?  Learning the routine, whats expected, ect.
We got totally spoiled and found the best preschool ever.  The teachers, the Moms, everything about it was just awesome.  I mean, I actually hang out with some of the Moms.  Normally you gone your separate ways and be done.  Not this group.  We got lucky.

But Kindergarten.  Big changes.  All day.  No more lunch at home.  No more hanging out after lunch doing whatever we want.  Watching movies, being silly, waiting for Daddy to come home from work.  Not its all freakin day.  Who does all day Kindergarten anyway?  Jeesh.

I know they will adjust. Abby will have a rough time I'm sure of it.  We have been preparing for a long time.  Today we went shopping with Nana and bought all their new school clothes, shoes, backpacks, and their lunch box's.  (waaahhhhhhhh!!! :(

Is it them, or is it me?  Am I making this into a bigger deal then it's going to be?  Will they adjust just fine, and it will be me sitting here crying missing them.  I mean come on.  I'm normal right?  Both kids heading off at the same time, leaving my days open and free to do what I want. 

I will work more.  And that will be very good for my business.  I love my job, and have plans to get out in the community and hopefully teach some Insanity classes and start a Fit Club. 

I will have more time to clean, maybe my house won't look so shitty all the time. 

I will do more work outside to make my yard look better. 

I will miss them like crazy.  And wonder how this happened.  How did 5 years go by so fast?  Life is nuts.  I love looking back, and seeing how much fun we had together.  I know we have lots more time for fun, and we will make more memories.  But in a way, I feel like I'm losing them a little.

It's not just me right?

Abby lost another tooth!

She has 2 gone now. :) such a big girl! Tooth fairy has come and left a total of 4 "shiny new coins" and she is thrilled. Gotta give props to daddy for sneaking in and getting it done. ;) 

Saturday, 3 August 2013

Birthday party fun!

The girls had a party today at a gym here in town. Parties like these are always fun and the kids have a blast!
The girls decided to wake me up this morning when it was still dark out. Yea, super early. :(  poor Abby couldn't make the party because she was so tired.  She totally melted down and said "I don't think I should go to the party, I need to rest" I felt bad for her but I knew if she went she would be miserable and I would too. 
Of course this little energizer bunny was fine and had a blast with her friends. The Birthday boy loves hockey so they had little plastic masks to bring home with their party bags. This would be her, playing hockey with an apple juice bottle LOL. 
Gotta love it right? ;)

Time to Turbo!

TurboFire is a crazy-intense and fun cardio program designed to awaken your inner athlete and help you get a leaner, sexier body—fast! This 90-day program is packed with kickboxing drills, aerobic exercises, and intense intervals perfectly choreographed to the hottest music, so you stay motivated to push hard and get awesome results. Award-winning fitness expert Chalene Johnson is with you every step of the way, getting you hooked on the adrenaline high, burning tons of calories, and shedding those extra pounds. 

I have done Turbo Fire and lost 18lbs.  It's one of my favorite programs Beachbody offers.  You don't want to miss out on this crazy awesome deal.  Our challenge groups offer everything you need to succeed. Support+nutrition=RESULTS!!  I will be starting a brand new online fitness challenge starting August 26th.  Please email me at so we can chat more!

This is one of my best friends, and a coach on my team!  She lost 15lbs and 12 inches in 90 days!  Make sure you go visit her on Facebook at Free your mind with Stacey!

Friday, 2 August 2013

My first post!

Ahh, yes.  It feels good to be back in blog land!  :)  If you are are new to my blog and don't know much about my life, well, here is me in a nutshell.

I met the love of my life in 2001
Engaged in 2002
Married in 2003
We tried for over 6 years to get pregnant, but it wasn't happening.
One perfect IVF cycle brought us 2 perfect little babies, Abby & Alex.
I got diagnosed with PPD 3 weeks after I gave birth.
I hit my lowest of lows, and it took a long time for me to get back on track.
I finally did, but there was something missing.
Then came Insanity, and Beachbody.   And the story unfolds there.

That is pretty much me the past 5 years.  My girls are headed off to Kindergarten in like, 18 sleeps ( I know there are Moms out there who count down in sleeps right?) so I decided to start a fresh new blog about our new adventures.  I used to blog all the time.  "Our life with Multiples" was my page.  When I started with Beachbody, blogging kind of got put on the back burner.  I have missed it.  So here I am again. :)

This will be filled with our life adventures, and of course my passion and love, being a Team Beachbody coach.  I hope to share my struggles and gains with other Moms who need to hear a story like mine.  I know I did when I was struggling.  Cause it's hard being a new Mom, and even harder being a new Mom to multiples.  <3

To kick off my first blog post, here is a little snap-shot into our life.  Pretty much what makes us the most happiest during the summer days.  <3

Oh yes!  We hit the pool today at around 1030am.  We pulled up, and it was empty.  After a rough start, I thought SHIT!  Why are you closed!! I had a mini freak out, but thought why on earth would they be closed??  They weren't.  It was empty.  Seriously EMPTY.  It stayed that way for about 20 minutes.  We stayed for over 2 hours and had a freakin blast!!  Who doesn't enjoy a public pool all to themselves?? :p

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